Posted by Mili on November 04, 1998 at 03:55:30:
In Reply to: Re: Re: "Carting Ginger Off..." posted by Ginger Moreno on November 03, 1998 at 10:58:25:
Ginger, it make me God if I knew all the answer now, wouldn't it. I don'k think it's unforunate Ginger, I think I am lucky NOT to have all the answers.
Listen to yourself. Of course you have your own opinion and so does everyone else dear "Cousin." But hurting other people isn't my style lady. Contrary to you, Frank and Carl Jr. I try to find the good in people.
Your Mother use to write me "quite often". All of her letters were loving to me. She often spoke of Jesus in her letters. I still have her letters somewhere here. She never spoke ill will about anyone, except you. She adored Frank. If I didn't call her "Titi" Iris, she would feel hurt. So I always referred her to Titi Iris. Your Mother inside herself was a very lonely women. How sad. She use to ask me over and over again in her letters to please call her collect. Of course I never called her collect. I would just call her. I received Christmas Cards from her every Christmas. When she stopped. I wondered and then I would finally find her in Rio Piedras, Puerto Rico.
As for Carl being judge and jury, he could answer me himself he so wishes to. I DO NOT consider a judge or jury. I have made my share of mistakes and acknowledge them. I don't think I have "HURT" anyone purposely, however, I am direct to and to the point.
I never met Rafaela. I have spoken to her on the phone a couple of times. I also know she is very lonely. Someday soon, I plan to visit her for the first time. I would like to meet her. I feel so sorry for her, she really has no one.
As for my "loving" parents, there is NOTHING you or anyone can say. You do not know me well enough, only what I wrote. Which of course is totally true. My father was a very very sick man who was good, kind, and a golden heart. I adored my father and felt truly sorry for him. He felt unloved and abandoned by his family and he was so hurt. He would sit in his wheel chair and cry. I know that Titi Yolanda, Tio Miguel, Tio Nono, Aunt Donna, my uncle Luis(whom I adored when I was a child)really and truly cared for my father and for us. Norma was actually my best friend. I loved Jr. with all my heart and I still do. As for my mother. She was a gifted pianist and because of her wonderful talent put food on the table as she had to go out everyday to struggle for us kids to eat. Since my father was so sick and my mother had to go and work we were put into an orphange, since a crippled man couldn't very well take care of 4 children. Not because we weren't loved. We were very much loved. But we were poor. Very very very poor. Yet, we all turned out good. I never had a formal education. yet, I did myself through college and so did my brother and sister. My older brother was in the Navy and he taught himself to speak 7 languages. So there is nothing to be said about denouncing my "wonderful" parents.
Emily is not a part of this family, thank God. I should have told Frank what she did to me and she laughed at my clothes and shoes. My mocassins were a joke to her and called them stupid. She laughed at my watch. "Looney tunes". Very malicious. When you and Frank left the room, she kept telling my grandson what to do. Excuse me, but I have a very well behaved grandson who goes to a christian school. I am very proud of him and would jump in front of a truck before anyone hurts him. I think I said that right.!!! Anyhow, she did tell me she was "shacking up with you that night" and there was no room for me. I felt so terrible you haven't any idea. I never stay where I am not welcomed or wanted. I know better so I left.
I went ot Las Vegas to have fun and my trip to California was FOR YOU AND FRANK, NOT HADIDJAH. I was very happy to see Hadidjah as she IS my 1st cousin and my godmother as well. But I went to SEE YOU and FRANK and I was really excited about it. And if it was 4 hours as you say, well my dear time flies when you are having fun. Which i was!!!
I am very glad you and Frank are best friends. It should always be this way. My sister and my 2 brothers love me to no end. I love them too. My children ARE my best best friends. They know I adore them.
I hope this clears the air once and for all. It is so much nicer when people can love one another.
Mili